7th

Was there ever a time where you found it difficult to place yourself in one certain position when people just want so much out of you? I think that's what got to me most today. I wanted to hang out with my friends whom I haven't seen in long while today and not flake or be m.i.a again as I have been...I wanted to see my boyfriend as well who I only get to see once a week and with him needing help on homework, it's rather hard for me to do because as much as I want to help him, I want to hang-out and not have do deal with homework in general ....I wanted to also finish all of MY homework so I can put it aside to actually do these things, but because of other chores around the house that need to be done, I couldn't...Which all brings me to the point that I am trying make: I'm juggling so many things at once while trying to not leave my other priorities behind; my friendships, my relationship, my family and MYSELF ):

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So today, I finally decided that I should just stay home and do what it is that needs to be done such as my homework and chores. I did that for a while then took a shower. I opened the window in the bathroom to let all the steam out and in doing so I caught on a cold. My head began to hurt and I started to shiver. I went to the bathroom feeling the need to throw up, but I didn't. I just laid in bed and fell asleep for a good 3 hours. I woke up confused as ever because it was completely dark and when I had fallen asleep it was still day out. I woke up feeling better, I just got a chill i guess.